It's soooo good to be home. After we landed on Saturday, I went to my parents' house, because my cousin got married on Sunday in Maine and we, of course, wanted to be there. I didn't want to upset my dogs by coming home and then going away again for another night, so I decided to come home this morning.
The wedding was beautiful. It was a real country wedding and was very thoughtfully put together and really represented my cousin and her husband perfectly. What a neat couple they are. Mom and I did fine, until about 7:30, when I started to fade fast and Mom too. We had the foresight to recognize that we would not want to stay in a hotel again last night, so Dad drove us home. I felt like I had been hit by a truck. I have a sore throat and a whopper of a cold now, but I am so happy to be back in my own house, snuggling with my two four legged babies.
Gunnar is lying on Anelya's baby blanket right now. I am hoping they will get used to her smell and behave well when we get her home. I think she will get a real kick out of them. I KNOW they will just love her, especially when they realize that they can pace the perimeter of her high chair for some treats!
While I was away, my boss bought a new building which is currently being renovated. I stopped by and saw him working there this morning. It's a great building and a nice project for me while I am waiting for Anelya to come home.
It feels so strange to be home without Anelya. In a way, the whole trip feels like a dream. The way this process works is just so weird. I mean here I am, back in my house, exactly the way I was the day before I left. It's as if nothing has changed, but EVERYTHING has changed. I don't know how to explain it. I miss Anelya so much, but it also feels so surreal, like she is some figment of my imagination. Maybe that is how I will get through this wait emotionally.
The trip was really like a movie. The characters: Pasha, Olga, Daniel, Igor... the drama: problems with translations, no water, court, sick babies... The setting: far away in an exotic land... The movie was a comedy, but a real tearjerker. I guess it was like a romantic comedy, just a different kind of love story. I feel like I do after i see a movie that i loved that I replay again and again in my mind; that first meeting with Anelya in the Baby House Director's office, racing through the halls to the infirmary when she was having trouble breathing, her bonking her head and reaching up for me for the first time; court; leaving. It's all so surreal.
I am ready for this dream to be reality. I cannot wait to get my baby home. I cannot wait for all of you to meet the star of this show. I cannot wait to bring home my Anelya.
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2 comments:
Andrea-
I think that is the perfect way to sum it up. I remember after I returned home from trip one and thinking I couldn't believe Finley was not here, however it almost seemed like she wasn't suppose to be yet. I thought about her constantly, but only in little spurts, as I had so much going on and a lot of things to get done. Once I boarded the plane for the final trip it seemed much more REAL. Knowing the players on the other side of the world waiting for me, not feeling like I was going to a foreign country at all. You are totally processing this the way I did. Thinking about you during this last "hump" in this process.
I hope you feel better soon!
Sandi
You described the surreal part of this perfectly. I went through the same thing. Two different worlds that have yet to come together. For me, reality hit during the ride home from the airport with Brady in the carseat. Keep yourself busy and you will be home with your star in no time. Hope you are feeling better (I came home sick from my first trip too -- miserable).
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