Our Time in Semey - In Pictures

Thursday, October 15, 2009

I Have Officially Run Out of Patience

Buckle up, people. I have had it. Today I have had a series of panic attacks. I cannot believe I did not get a phone call today. I cannot stop crying. I can barely breathe. I am disillusioned, furious, upset and hopeful at all once. I hate this part of the process. I absolutely hate it. It's one thing when you have a time frame to return, but when you are at the end of that time frame and still have no idea of a return date it's a ludicrous, obnoxious, cruel process.

I miss my baby so much I cannot think of anything else. I have to force myself to get work done. I have to force myself to take a deep breath each time someone asks me if I "have any news". I seriously have officially lost it. I have been so positive and patient for two years and now I can tell you I am losing my mind. If I do not get news tomorrow, I may just decide to find a way to make the money work and go over there, take custody of Anelya and wait for the passport there. My eyes are swollen, my blood is boiling and my mind is boggled.

1 comment:

Rose said...

Andrea, I am so sorry to hear that you didn't get any news today. I kept checking your status updates for some news, thinking that maybe there was still time for you to hear today. I will say an extra prayer tonight that you will get good news tomorrow.

Rose

This is the story of how a single 30-something year old woman and a 6.5 month old angel from Kazakhstan found each other and became a family. A journey which started as a dream, became reality in August 2009 when two hearts found one home... together.