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Friday, September 12, 2008

Plan of Action

I tend to face things on with full force. Sometimes I run myself into the ground. I am learning not to do that, but when I feel passionately about something, bad habits tend to show their faces. That is how I am feeling right now - whipped. I have spent so much energy on the dossier and especially on fundraising, that I am experiencing a good old fashioned case of burn out. I am exhausted. I haven't posed anything in my EBay store for almost the whole summer, as I was busy with yard sales, Amazon and the dossier. I suppose it is time to get back into the EBay routine. So, maybe I will do that this weekend. I'd rather do the hardcore fundraising now and slow down a couple of months before travel, because God knows I will need all of the energy I can get when it's time to go! At the same time, I am so exhausted that I feel it's essential for me to take a week off completely. I may even go so far as to not read blogs for a week. THE HORROR! Not sure I can actually pull that off.

I'm worried about the upcoming September 15 date, which may or may not bring some kind of announcement. I'm sort of kicking myself about my 2 months of slacking off last winter, as if I had started the process, my dossier would be in Kaz right now. But, it's all happening the way it's supposed to.

I am discouraged by seeing the number of PAPs who are dropping out of the Kaz program. It's making me nervous. Am I missing something? UGH. So, I'm sorry for the downer blog post today. LOL. I'm grumpy and I just want to bring my baby home. This is the first time I have really felt "DOWN" in the 9 months this has been going on. I guess that's not so bad.

4 comments:

Suzette & Tate said...

I'm there with you Andrea. The waiting is just tiring and I too feel as though I am missing something when so many people are dropping out. The good news is that people are still coming home with babies, getting assigned regions and getting LOI's. That is what keeps me going :)

Suzette

Rose said...

Hi Andrea,

I think you have to look at what agencies those dropping out are with...there seem to be a handful that have all of the problems and all of the dropouts (actually, I can only think of one off the top of my head.) My agency is a small one dealing only with Kaz. I have become friends with my coordinator, who's also the head of the agency (she's meeting my parents at a BBQ I'm having for some Kaz families next week!) She is still accepting new clients, including single women. I trust her completely when she tells me what's going on and that we will see this through to the end. If you believe in your agency, and won't give up, I believe that you'll be fine!

Andrea said...

Thank you to all of you for your words on encouragement on and off the blog. Don't wrry, I'm not dropping out or even worried about my agency - I love and trust LMI completely. I'm just tired. I took this afternoon off and am curled up watching a film with my dogs. Good move. Thanks again!

Sandi said...

Hey there,
You will have many days of anger and frustrations and then you will have good days. As everyone says when we meet our children and we are back home we will know what all this waiting was for.

Sandi

This is the story of how a single 30-something year old woman and a 6.5 month old angel from Kazakhstan found each other and became a family. A journey which started as a dream, became reality in August 2009 when two hearts found one home... together.