The Wait

Well, as you can tell from my last post, I have had a rough couple of weeks. Thank you to all of you who have reached out to me. I am doing better every day and the beauty of this is that it has allowed me to refocus on Lily and the wonderful things to come. I have been very fortunate to live an exciting life around the world and have come to know unbelievably wonderful people. I am so thankful for all of the love and support I have received through the years and that which you have shown me now. Someday I will find my prince. Someday it will just work.

My friend Sandi is back in Kazakhstan now, busting her beautiful Finley out of the baby house tomorrow.  I couldn't be happier for her and watching her finally get her baby after a long process is just wonderful to see. 

The wait is honestly just excruciating right now. I feel like it will never end. It just seems that not much is happening right now in the world of baby girls, so I, among others, wait and wait. I know there is a plan. I know that Lily is not ready for me yet. I know it will all happen as it should, but that thinking is not helping me anymore. 

I was really touched and excited when my dad told me last week that, if his work schedule will allow, he would like to make the second trip to Kazakhstan with me to spring Lily out of the baby house. I also received two wonderful offers from friends to do the same, so it seems that I will indeed have company on my second trip. As you know, Mom will be with me on the first trip. Honestly, I want nothing more than to actually be getting ready to go rather than waiting and talking about it... 

I'm going to try to refocus on fundraising again and try to raise the last few thousand dollars during the summer months. A yard sale is in the works and I am taking suggestions for any other ideas you might have. I have been very successful at my previous fundraising efforts and so I am sure it will all work out just as it is meant to.  Thank you for bearing with me during these less upbeat blog entries. I am feeling better everyday and hope that soon I will be back to my old self.