Maybe my last Oscars for a while...

Anyone who knows me knows that I LOVE awards shows. Maybe it's the glamour. Maybe it's that fuzzy feeling I get when watching people actually reach the very highest possible honor of their life's work. I don't know what it is, but I love awards shows. As I write this post, I am watching the Academy Awards and I can't concentrate. I can't help but wonder if this maybe be my last quiet Oscars experience for a very long while. I hope so! This time next year maybe I will be in Kazakhstan meeting my child. Or maybe we will already be home and trying to work out what the meaning of sleep is.

All of this brings me to a very personal thought process that I now find myself in and want to share. Perhaps I want to share it with you, whomever you may be, or maybe it's my way of articulating my thoughts to myself. In any case, it;s a subject that flows as quickly and repeatedly into my head as it does out.

HOW THE HECK AM I GOING TO PULL THIS OFF? (no worries, I am laughing while I write this).

I am very thankful to have joined a yahoo group of single mothers who have adopted/are adopting from Kazakhstan. I am SO THANKFUL to have this support network because it like a free-for-all forum where every single person on the boards understands the emotional roller coaster that comes along with this process. It's actually quite amusing to see how everyone periodically flips out and it's touching to see how everyone rallies around her to support her through her question, problem or, often, meltdown. I haven't quite hit the meltdown phase yet, but I am sure it'll be here at some point.

So here's what's on my mind when I question how I am going to pull this off:
-How can I walk my two crazy dogs with a baby/stroller without having to recruit the Dog Whisperer?
-How will I function on no sleep?
-How will my mother survive for almost a month in Kazakhstan? HAHAHAHA That month should provide me with world class blog material.
-How do you shower if your baby is awake?
-And for that matter, as I look at the 3 feet of snow accumulation outside, how do I shovel? Ok not that I do a mad amount of shoveling, but I do shovel enough for the dog to be able to walk in the dog yard. hich reminds me. I should post some pics of my boys.

And the most pressing issue for me right now is one that we discuss daily on the boards. How am I going raise the crazy sum of $35,000 (the cost of adopting including travel, accomodations, translators, drivers, etc) in the next 9 months? I know I can do it, but it is daunting indeed.

Having said that, I am feeling great about the adoption and all that is to come. I'm a pretty tough broad. I've had some curve balls thrown my way. Bring it on. A curve ball with chubby cheeks is fine by me! So, I haven't quite poured my stress on to the pages tonight, but I did want to share what's running through my head. Thanks for listening/reading.